Ms Lindz Knits

I’m about 6 rows short of competing the body of the Green Gable Hoodie and then it’s on to the sleeves. Here’s the picture I took on my cell phone camera after lunch today:

I’ve been wanting to share this picture on my blog for a while now, but somehow haven’t yet. My friend Grace took this picture of Matt and I. I love it.

I’m still not sure how I managed to get so lucky. To be honest, relationships before this were never “right” (for lack of a better word). Something always felt like it was missing, I always felt unhappy, unsatisfied, unloved, unwanted… and I’m sure a bunch of other “un” words. I just always felt like something was missing. Then I started changing. Changing my behavior and thought process. Changing my life and making it a bit more about me instead of about everyone else. I became more happy on my own and no longer depended on someone else to make me happy. Then I started to get to know Matt. Our relationship has grown from that point on. I feel like I can’t say or think it enough, but this is nothing like anything I’ve experienced. This relationship we have is what I’ve always imagined having. I feel so lucky and fortunate to be able to wake up with him every morning and fall asleep with him every night. For the first time in my life I’m not questioning every little thing in a relationship, holding things to myself, dreading and fearing doing something wrong to screw it all up. I just wanted to share this because I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately. Life is full of surprises and this has been the best of them all so far :o)

Tonight Matt and I have to go to a class on spinal fusion. I might be having surgery done in the coming months. Nothing has been decided yet, but it has definitely been on my mind.

Tags: Life, Matt, Sweater